let me tell you what it looks like from up here

Sorry I’ve been quiet but I’ve had a little but of a shit week.

Found out I was pregnant, found out they couldn’t see a baby, found out my levels weren’t indicative of a healthy pregnancy. Now I’m waiting to find out if I’m going to miscarry or if I have an ectopic pregnancy. Idk the spelling on that, don’t care. I get a scan on Monday to look for where the pregnancy is and to get more bloodwork. Just the longest process ever.

We are fine. We can see the divine hand in this. It’s just a bit disappointing to get really excited and dreamy for a minute and then have a giant bucket of water poured over everything.

Could be worse. Everyone is healthy. We have love. It was super early which is a blessing. I don’t know how people miscarry far along, so sad.

Anyway, I’ll be back bright eyed and bushy tailed next week. Pinky promise.

5 February 2012 ·